Another Week of Auditions

So I just finished another week of auditions. I only had three, but they were all very different experiences. My first one was for "Carousel". I completely bombed that one! For some reason I started at the wrong part of my song! I apologized and started over, but the damage was done. I completely lost focus and was out of tune and just plain bad. I couldn't wait to get out of that room and that building. Needless to say, I did not get a call back. It really bothered me that I did so bad because the two people before me didn't threaten my ego at all and I felt really calm before I walked into the room. Maybe that's the key: have a little nervousness to up the stakes!

Anyway, on Friday I auditioned for "West Side Story". I was excited because I got there at 8am and was the 37th person on the list. Usually when I get to the studios I'm in the 100s. So I did my make-up, left to go warm up, and was back right before they called number 1. That audition went well. I had the perfect amount of nervousness to not screw up. After I sang my song, the auditor asked me if I went by Katherine or Kate. I said Katie (Weird question to ask, but at least he was talking to me!). Then he asked me if I was an excellent dancer. I didn't want to lie so I told him that I thought I was a good dancer. After I left the room I wish I had just lied, because I was not invited to the dance call back audition. I figured it was best to be honest, but who knows? Maybe I could have been great at the dance audition. I didn't even give myself the chance to get that far.

Saturday I was the 157th girl on the list for the Mac-Haydn theatre summer season audition. As far as I know there were over 200 girls signed up along with the other 200 plus girls they saw the day before. As I sat in the holding room waiting to go audition, I saw only three girls come out of their audition with pink call back slips. That made be feel calm in a strange way. I guess I figured that who cares if I don't get a call back because most of us won't be getting call backs. So I went in, did my thing, and that was it. No pink slip for me.

After doing this for a month, I haven't got to the point where I want to give up. Sure I haven't had any call backs, but most of me is here for the experience. I know that doing this is making me a stronger singer. I used to be so terrified of going to auditions that my voice would quiver and I would shake all over. Now, after I sing that first note, I'm just doing the best that I can! I think that is the most valuable thing New York has given me so far!